Coming Home!

Yay! Isabella will be home on Saturday!

For those who just randomly find this blog, Isabella is in the Army. She hasn't been home since she left for boot camp in July. The last time we (her family and myself) saw her was at her graduation from boot camp.

Thanks for the memories!

Roommate, thank you so much for helping to make my birthday this year the best ever! I wish you could have been here for it, instead of all the way in Cali, but I'm glad you were able to have some part in its awesomeness.

Back in the swing of things?

I would like to get back in the swing of things of blogging again. Can this be done? We shall see.

Not quite sure what to put on here. I've been away from technology for what feels like forever. I've been trying to do the big girl thing and take care of life and crap. How crazy is that? But I kind of feel emotional lately. I guess that's what happens when you start liking a guy who's taken...while you're at AIT. Yeah. This is a problem. Yes, I do hate my life. Yes, he is trying to take full advantage of the situation. I'm not sure what to do anymore. He's the best friend I have here. I'll rant more later, but I'm on a public computer so I don't think that's exactly a safe place to be typing all of this. I'll update you all when I get back to my room tonight.

Love,
Bells

How in the Hell? (A Post by Isabella)

How in the hell, after three years, are you still making my life suck? How are you possibly ruining me? Ruining everything I touch? I got away! I got out...alive....That in itself is a miracle. But now...now, after 3 years, you're still fucking up my life! I hate everything about you. I hate this. I hate it. I don't know what to do now...I'm lost.

~~~Isabella, explanation to follow.

"Be strong and courageous."

Last night I read the first chapter of Joshua. In this chapter, the phrase "be strong and courageous" appeared four times. So I decided to write about it.

Here are some definitions for the word "strong": 1) having, showing, or able to exert great bodily or muscular power, 2)mentally powerful or vigorous, 3)of great moral power, firmness, or courage.

definitions for "courage": 1)the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc. without fear.

"It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to your enemies, even more to stand up to your friends."

"When you see what is right, have the courage to do it."

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

Because this phrase was in the chapter so many times, it stood out to me. I am getting ready to graduate. Isabella, you just graduated, and are preparing for boot camp in the Army. We both have fears and doubts when it comes to this next phase in our lives. It is a little scary. What's going to happen? Where will we be? I know I think about these questions a lot. And more. We have spent most of our lives in school. Elementary, middle school, high school, college. There is a whole world outside of that. A big world. I know that I don't feel prepared for life outside of school (which is probably why I am trying to go to grad school). This is where we get to fully lead our lives. Growing up, we relied on our parents to take care of us. In college, we became a little more independent, but we had scholarships, housing, campus food. We were still being taken care of a little bit. But now, we head out on our own.

You know what you want to do. You will be trained to be a soldier, then you will become a linguist in whatever language they put you in. Me? I'm still trying to figure out what to do. Yes, I know I want to go to grad school. I want to perform on stage, maybe in tv or film. But there is so much to do to prepare for it. I have to apply to several places, which costs money. I have to take the GRE, which costs money. I have to figure out my area of emphasis, the degree that I want (MA, MFA, ABC). I have to plan for auditions/interviews. I have to write a letter of intent, blah blah blah. Thinking about everything and planning for it just makes my head spin.

What I need to do is put my focus back on God. He is with me. Or, should be. I haven't really being staying in touch with him. I know that with him, his plan will work out. Not my plan. His. I should trust him. You should too.

--Post by Amelia

Getting back on track

I think it is time we tried to get back on track. I want to get in the habit of doing a bible study. So, I am going to try to blog about it again. You can do it with me by reading the same book, or a different book. You can even decide to not do it, and just follow the blog.

I just thought I would let you know about it.