The Host: Days 27 and 28--Chapters 57-59 and Epilogue

Chapter 57:
"Jeb. Listen to me carefully, Jeb. I am tired of being a parasite. Can you understand that? Do you think I want to go into another body and have this start all over again? Do I have to feel guilty forever for taking someone's life away from them? Do I have to have someone else hate me? I'm barely a soul anymore--I love you brutish humans too much. It's wrong for me to  be here, and I hate feeling that...And what if things change? What if you put me in someone else, steal another life, and it goes wrong? What if that body pulls me after some other love, back to the souls? What if you can't trust me anymore? What if I betray you next time? I don't want to hurt you!"

"The first part was the the pure and unadorned truth, but I was lying wildly through the second. I hoped they wouldn't hear that. It would help that the words were barely coherent, my tears turned to sobs. I would never hurt them. What had happended to me here was permanent, a part of the very atoms that made up my small body. But maybe, if I gave them a reason to fear me, they would more easily accept what had to be."

"Just a few more things to do. Three, to be precise. Three last deeds to be completed. First, I ate...Second, I went to see Sunny and Jodi...So I proceeded to my third and final deed: I lied."

"What would it be like for everyone here, meeting Melanie for the first time? Would it seem the same to them, as if there were no difference? Would they really grasp that I was gone, or would Melanie simply fill the role I had? Maybe they would find her utterly different. Maybe they would have to adjust to her all over again. Maybe she would fit in the way I never had."

"Wanda?" Kyle said.
"Yes?"
"I'm sorry."
"Um...why?"
"For trying to kill you," he said casually. "Guess I was wrong."
Ian gasped. "Please tell me you have some kind of recording device available, Doc."
"Nope. Sorry, Ian."
Ian shook his head. "This moment should be preserved. I never thought I'd live to see the day that Kyle O'Shea would admit to being wrong. C'mon, Jodi. That ought to shock you awake."
"Jodi, baby, don't you want to defend me? Tell Ian I never have been wrong before." He chuckled.
That was nice. It was nice to know that I'd earned Kyle's acceptance before I left. I hadn't expected that much.
 

"I was done, all my tasks accomplished. I only had to wait a bit now and not fall asleep. Tired as I was, I didn't think that would be a problem. My heart was pounding like a fist hitting my ribs from the inside. No more stalling. It had to be tonight, and Mel knew that, too. What had happended today with Ian had shown me that. The longer I stayed, the more tears and agruments and fights I would cause. The better the chance that I or someone else would slip up and Jamie would find out the truth. Let Mel explain it after the fact. It would be better that way."

Thanks so much, Mel thought; her words flowed fast, in a burst, her fear marring her sarcasm.
Sorry. You don't mind too much?
She sighed. How can I mind? I'd do anything you asked me to, Wanda.
Take care of them for me.
I would have done that anyway.
Ian, too.
If he'll let me. I've got a feeling he might not like me so much.
Even if he won't let you.
I'll do whatever I can for him, Wanda. I promise.

"I truly love you, Ian." It was the only way I could tell him goodbye. The only way he would accept. I knew he would remember later and understand. "With my whole soul, I love you."
"I truly love you, too, my Wanderer."

 

Chapter 58:
"This was my planet, and they wouldn't make me leave. I would stay in the dirt, in the dark grotto with my friends. A human grave for the human I had become."

"Heart and soul. Not the same thing, in my case. I'd been divided too long. It was time to make something whole again, make a whole person. Even if that excluded me."

"You are the noblest, purest creature I've ever met. The universe will be a darker place without you," he whispered.
 

Chapter 59:

"Listen up, Wanda. I know exactly what you don't want to be. But we're human, and we're selfish, and we don't always do the right thing. We aren't going to let you go. Deal with it."
 

"I held you in my hand, Wanderer. And you were so beautiful."

"Happy and sad, elated and miserable, secure and afraid, loved and denied, patient and angry, peaceful and wild, complete and empty...all of it. I would feel anything. It would all be mine."

Epilogue:
"What if those feelings in the hospital, those few perfect moments of certainty right after I'd awoken in this body, had been illusion? What if I remembered them wrong? I knew that nothing had changed for me, but how could I be certain Ian felt the same? The body he'd fallen in love with was still right here!"

"Look like I'm not the only one who's gone native...Burns Living Flowers," he introduced himself.
My eyes widened at his name. Fire world--how unexpected. "Wanderer," I told him.
"It's...extraordinary to meet you, Wanderer. And here I thought I was one of a kind."
"Not even close," I said, thinking of Sunny back in the caves. Perhaps we were none of us as rare as we thought.
He raised an eyebrow at my answer, intrigued. "Is that so?" he said. "Well, maybe there's some hope for this planet, after all."
"It's a strange world," I murmured, more to myself than to the other native soul.
"The strangest," he agreed.
 

---Amelia

The Host: Day 26--Chapters 55 and 56

Chapter 55:
"This wasn't so bad, not after what they'd been fearing the last few days. Yes, Kyle was a self-absorbed idiot, their faces seemed to say, but at least he was back, no harm done. No evacuation, no danger of the Seekers. No more than usual, anyway. He'd brought another worm back, but then, weren't the caves full of them these days? It just wasn't as shocking as it used to be."

"It was easy to imagine the frayed state her nerves must be in. Souls were not designed to handle violence and terror."

"I wondered who this strange man was, the one who had come back in Kyle's place. Had they checked his eyes? I couldn't believe he'd carried all this gentleness around inside his big angry body."

"How much longer would I have the feeling of a hand warm around mine? When was the last time I would walk down this tunnel? Was it this time?"

Chapter 56:
"It was an odd thing--as if Kyle and Ian had switched faces. Except Ian's face was still perfect, unbroken. Beautiful, even though it was enraged."

"When Melanie's body touched Jared's body, it was like a wildfire--a fast burn that raced across the surface of the desert and consumed everything in its path. With Ian it was different, so very different, because Melanie didn't love him the way I did. So when he touched me, it was deeper and slower than the wildfire, like the flow of molten rock far beneath the surface of the earth. Too deep to feel the heat of it, but it moved inexorably, changing the very foundations of the world with its advance."

"'Eight full lives,' I whispered against his jaw, my voice breaking. 'Eight full lives and I never found anyone I would stay on a planet for, anyone I would follow when they left. I never found a partner. Why now? Why you? You're not of my species. How can you be my partner?'" "'It's a strange universe,' he murmured."

"How could I find this, find love--now, in this eleventh hour--and have to leave it? Was it fair that my soul and body couldn't reconcile? Was it fair that I had to love Melanie, too?"

"I, the soul called Wanderer, love you, human Ian. And that will never change, no matter what I might become. If I were a Dolphin or a Bear or a Flower, it wouldn't matter. I would always love you, always remember you. You will be my only partner."


---Amelia

The Host: Days 23, 24, and 25--Chapters 49-54

Chapter 49:
The Seeker that killed Wes is Wanda's Seeker. Because Jeb wanted Wanda to have a chance to talk to the Seeker before they killed her. Killing the Seeker would be the best option, the only option.

"So why did I feel as though I was at the disadvantage? Why this strange premonition that she would be the one to walk away from our confrontation?" Wanda is still not sure if she wants to talk the the Seeker.

"I was wondering...Why? Why coudn't you let me be dead, like the rest of them? Why were you so determined to hunt me down? I didn't want to hurt anyone. I just wanted...to go my own way."

"How to finish that sentence? I didn't want...the Seeker to die? No. That wasn't true. I didn't want...to hate the Seeker? To hate her so much that I wanted her to die. To have her die while I hated her. Almost as if she died because of my hate. If I truly did not want her death, would I be able to think of a way to save her? Was it my hate that was blocking an answer? Would I be responsible if she died?"

"But...but what if I could do both? What if I could save her life and keep everyone here safe at the same time?"

"Because I could save the Seeker. Of course I could. But it would cost me. A trade. What had Kyle said? A life for a life." Wanda knows now what she must do.

Chapter 50:
"Wanda, I..." Melanie struggled for words. Still, the joy I expected from her did no come. Again, this touched me. "I don't think I can let you do this. You're more important than that. In the bigger picture, you are of much more value to them than I am. You can help them; you can save them. I can't do any of that. You have to stay."

"I can't see any other way, Mel. I wonder how I didn't see it sooner. It seems so completely obvious. Of course I have to go. Of course I have to give you yourself back. I already knew we souls were wrong to come here. So I don't have any choice now but to do the right thing, and leave.You all survived without me before; you'll do it again. You've learned so much about the souls from me--you'll help them. Can't you see? This is the happy ending. It's the way they all need the story to finish. I can give them hope. I can give them...not a future. Maybe not that. But as much as I can. Everything I can."

"No wonder the success rate for resistant hosts was so low here on Earth. Once we learned to love our human host, what hope did we souls have? We could not exist at the expense of one we loved. Not a soul. A soul could not live that way."

"The shortest, the most important, the most heartbreaking of lives. The life that would forever define me. The life that had finally tied me to one star, to one planet, to one small family of strangers."

"Such a great hatred. Sharon would rather kill her own happiness, Doc's, too, than forgive him for helping to heal Jamie...I wondered if that would change when I was gone, or if they were both so rigid in their grudge that it would be too late for them to change. Whate an extraordinarily stupid way to waste time."

"There's something else I'm going to ask you for, Doc. I don't want to...I won't be shipped off to another planet. This is my planet, it truly is. And yet, there's really no place for me here. So...I know it might...offend some of the others. Don't tell them if you think they won't allow it. Lie if you have to. But I'd like to be buried by Walt and Wes. Can you do that for me? I won't take up much space."

Chapter 51:
"They didn't want to feel like monsters. Not again. They're trying to make up for before, only a little too late--and with the wrong soul." Jared on why the Seeker was getting "special treatment" as a prisoner.

Chapter 52:
"I find myself unable to be the death of you, Wanda. I can't stand it."

"We thought of my memories, the pretty ones. The ice castles and the night music and the colored suns. They were like fairytales to her. And she told me fairytales, too. Glass slippers, poisoned apples, mermaids who wanted to have souls..."

"We made a good team: one attending to the soul, the other to the body. Everyone was taken care of." After Wanda separed The Seeker's soul from her host, with the help of Doc.

"I'd done many things I had not wanted to do since joining the humans, but I couldn't remember any this sharply and pointedly painful. Even deciding to trade my life for the Seeker's--that was a huge, vast hurt, a wide field of ache, but it was almost manageable because it was so tied up in the bigger picture. Telling Ian goodbye was a razor-sharp piercing; it made the greater vision hard to see. I wished there was some way, any way, to save him from the same pain. There wasn't."

Chapter 53:
"The Seeker's host body was named Lacey; a dainty, soft, feminie name. Lacey. As inappropriate as the size, in my opinion. Like naming a pit bull Fluffy." Or a three-headed dog.

"In answer to my earlier question to myself, no, the face was not less repugnant with a different awareness behind it. Because the awareness was not so very different, in the end."

"Everyone wanted to see the miracle for themselves. It didn't even seem to matter to most of them that she was...difficult. She was welcome. More than welcome. Again, I felt a little of that bitter jealousy. But that was silly. She was human. She represented hope. She belonged here. She would be here long after I was gone."

On the way back from sending the Seeker's soul off, and grabbing two Healers to take back, Wanda had Ian take her to a fast food place, switching sides of course. He was a little grossed out that Wanda was dipping french fries into her shake. She made him try one, he said it was interesting. Melanie also thought it was gross. "That's why I'd cultivated the habit in the beginning. It was funny now to think of how I'd gone out of my was to annoy her."

"Maybe I didn't want to live on this sad planet with so much death. Maybe nothingness was better."

Wanda showed Doc how to separate the female Healer from her host. Before they were able to do the male Healer, he had woken up. "The Healer stared straight at me, his face childlike in his bewilderment. I knew why his eyes were on me--the lantern's rays danced off both his eyes and mine, making diamond patterns on the wall." "'Why?'" he asked me." He committed suicide. And murder, though the Soul didn't see it that way.

Chapter 54:
"I so much wished that the soul had waited for an answer, so I could have tried to explain it to him. He might even have understood. After all, what was more important, in the end, than love? To a soul, wasn't that the heart of everything? And love would have been my answer."

"Was it too late? Was she lost? WAs she already gone? Just as dead as the male body? Were all of them? Were there only a very few, like the Seeker's host, Lacey, and Melanie--the shouters, the resisters--who could be brought back? Was everyone else gone? Was Lacey an anomaly? Would Melanie come back the wasy she had...or was even that in question?"


---Amelia

The Host: Days 21 and 22--Chapters 45-48

Chapter 45:
The reason it took so long for the Healer to come back is because she wanted to grab a mirror so Wanda could see herself. Wanda left and got back to Jared safely.

"I figured it was better to die trying than to live without the kid." Jared didn't really think they were going to make it out. This is his explanation for why he wanted to try anyways. Better to go down with a fight, then not even try at all.

They got back to the cave safely. Everyone was  angry with Jared and Wanda. Doc hesitated but he allowed Wanda to use the medicines on Jamie. They worked.

Chapter 46:
"How sad. How frightening. To be filled with so much hate that you could not even rejoice in the healing of a child...How did anyone ever come to that point." They only people not celebrating Jamie's recovery were Sharon and Maggie. They just walked out.

"What was it that made this human love so much more desirable to me than the love of my own kind.? Was it because it was exclusive and capricious? The souls offered love and acceptance to all. Did I crave a greater challenge? This love was tricky; it had no hard-and-fast rules--it might be given for free, as with Jamie, or earned through time and hard work, as with Ian, or completely and heartbreakingly unattainable, as with Jared. Or was it simply better somehow? Because these humans could hate with so much fury, was the other end of the spectrum that they could love with more heart and zeal and fire? I didn't know why I had yearned after it so desperately. All I knew was that, now that I had it, it was worth every ounce of risk and agony it had cost. It was better than I'd imagine. It was everything."

Chapter 47:
Wanda is now going out on raids. She is able to get things the others couldn't. It is easier for her, because she is a soul. On their way back to the caves after a long raid, Wanda, Jared, Ian, and Kyle stop at a motel (Kyle sleeps in the van). Wanda looks out the window and watches a family on the swings, 2 adult souls and their human child. "Something I've never seen in all my lives. I'm staring at...hope...Perhaps, someday, some of my kind and some of yours will live in peace. Wouldn't that be...strange?"

It has been decided that Wanda will have her own bed, and Ian and Jared share the other one. Ian decides for her, because it would give her agony. Jared is not really very happy about it.

"Fine," Jared snapped. "But if you try cuddling up to me tonight...so help me, O'Shea."
Ian chuckled. "Not to sound overly arrogant, but to be perfectly honest, Jared, were I so inclined, I think I could do better."

Chapter 48:
The group is almost home, when they get pulled over for speeding. Wanda knows it is a Seeker, because souls are not really needed to enforce the laws. Wanda is able to avoid suspicion, but the Seeker tells her that there had been a recent disappearance, and that humans are believed to be near the area. Jared and Wanda thinks that maybe Doc and Jeb brought in another soul while they were gone. Hearing that really upsets Wanda.

When they arrive back at the caves, Jamie informs them that Wes was killed by a Seeker.

---Amelia

The Host: Days 19 and 20--Chapters 41-44

Chapter 41:
"Would it have mattered if I'd simply been told rather than having seen the tortured remains for myself? Would the pain be less strong?"

"No, I had never intentionally cause anyone physical pain, but I had hurt Ian deeply enough by hurting myself. Human lives were so impossible tangled. What a mess." After seeing what she did in the hospital, Wanda hid for 3 days. She didn't eat and talk. And because of that, she hurt Ian.

Chapter 42:
Jamie is sick. He had injured himself by falling on a knife, and now it has become infected. They don't have the medicine to treat it. When Melanie tried to comfort Wanda after seeing the dead souls, Wanda pushed her away. It pushed her so far back that Wanda could no longer feel her. First, she had Ian kiss her to see if Melanie would come back. It didn't work, wasn't powerful enough. So Ian went and grabbed Jared. That brought Melanie back. But Jamie was still sick.

Chapter 43:
"Don't you see? For millions of my own kind, I've never been able to do that. Not for my own...children. I was always too afraid to die that final time. But I can do it for one alien child. It doesn't make any sense. Don't worry, though. I can die to protect Jamie." They can't get a hold of any antibiotics for Jamie. Wanda came up with the crazy idea to go out and get some from one of the hospitals. When she suggested, everybody was suspicious. No one would let her. So, Jared took her out in secret. He gave her a poison pill. If she were caught, she was to bite down on it.

Chapter 44:
Wanda had Jared scrape off the scar on her cheek with a rock, because she knew that it would cause the other souls to be suspicious. No soul would have a scar like that. She then had to stab herself in the arm with a knife to match Jamie's injury. She lied to the Healer about how she got it. The Healer told her what she was doing to fix Wanda, which allowed Wanda to know exactly what to grab. The Healer had left to get some more water, giving Wanda a few minutes to get the medicine she needed. But it is taking a while for the Healer to come back, so Wanda is worried.

---Amelia

The Host: Day 18--Chapters 39 and 40

Chapter 39:
"It was Wes's...reaction to you that surprised me. I didn't know he had so much depth to him. I was never really aware of him before that. Oh, well. He's too young for me, but what does that matter here? It's strange how life and love go on. I didn't expect that." Lily and Wes are a couple now.

Chapter 40:
"I didn't know how to mourn here." Wanda walked into the hospital wing. There were a couple of dead human bodies, covered up. There were also bodies of souls on the table. Dead. Tortured. One of them was a child. Wanda saw this, and it freaked her out. She sees the humans as monsters now. Can you blame her?

"You're one of us, Ian. Her enemy. Did you hear what she said in there? She was screaming monsters. That's how she sees us now. She doesn't want your comfort."

"I sat in the blackness of the big hole in the ground and grieved for lost souls with a human by my side." Ian sat down in the tunnel near her. He gave her space and quiet so that she could grieve.

This chapter just saddens me. I can't imagine the emotions that Wanda was feeling when she walked into the hospital wing.

---Amelia

The Host: Days 16 and 17--Chapters 35-38

Chapter 35:
"You're more than welcome, Wanda." Ian has been really good to Wanda. In this scene, Wanda just woke up from the sleep she was put in after Walter's funeral. Apparently Ian gave her his room. He just brought her food, including some Cheetos. She just thanked him for everything he has done for her. Ian's eyes should something more than just courtesy when he replied, and Wanda was trying to figure out exactly what that was. It reminds me of The Princess Bride. Anytime Buttercup told Wesley to do something, he would always respond with, "As you wish". What he was really saying was "I love you".

"Would any of you have done the same--rescue your enemy?"

"Murder is a subjective term," Maggie hissed. "I only consider it murder when something human is killed." Kyle is on trial right now. They are going to decide if he should be allowed to stay, or if he should be thrown out or killed. Some people don't believe that Kyle did anything wrong. Wanda is not human, so it would not be murder in her case. This reminds me of the abortion controversy.

"Human is a subjective term as well, Magnolia," Jared said, glowering at her. "I thought the definition embraced some compassion, some little bit of mercy."

Chapter 36:
Jared just asked Wanda what Melanie was thinking. Melanie wants to know why he believes them now. "An...accumulation of things. You were so...kind to Walter. I've never seen anyone but Doc be that compassionate. And you saved Kyle's life, where most of us would have let him fall just to protect ourselves, intended murder aside...But when they started attacking you today...well, I snapped. I could see in them everything that shouldn't have been in me. I realized I already did believe, and that I was just being obstinate. Cruel. I think I've believed since...well, a little bit since that first night when you put yourself in front of me to save me from Kyle." Way to use logic, Jared.

Kyle's truce: "I don't think I was wrong, but you did save my life. I don't know why, but you did. So I figure, a life for a life. I won't kill you. I'll pay the debt that way."

On why Wanda saved Kyle: "I didn't let you fall because...I'm not like you. I'm not saying that I'm not...like humans. Because there are others here who would do the same. There are kind and good people here. People like your brother, and Jeb, and Doc...I'm saying that I'm not like you personally."

Chapter 37:
"What if it were you?...What if you were the one...invaded that way? What if you were trapped, and someone else was telling your body what to do? If you couldn't speak for yourself? Wouldn't you want your wishes--as much as they could be known--respected? At the very least by other humans?" Jared's question to Ian.

"But what if it were you? What if you were stuffed in a human body and let loose on this planet, only to find yourself lost among your own kind? What if you were such a good...person that you tried to save the life you'd taken, that you almost died trying to get her back to her family? What if you then found yourself surrounded by violent aliens who hated you and hurt you and tried to murder you, over and over again? What if you just kept doing whatever you could to save and heal these people despite that? Wouldn't you deserve a life, too? Wouldn't you have earned that much?" Ian's question to Jared.

Chapter 38:
"It's not the face, but the expressions on it. It's not the voice, but what you say. It's not how you look in that body, but the things you do with it. You are beautiful." Just one of the reasons why I love Ian.

---Amelia

The Host: Day 15--Chapters 33 and 34

Chapter 33:
"Your definition of human is not the same as mine. To you, it means something...negative. To me, it's a compliment--and by my definition, you are and he isn't. Not after this." Wanda does not want to admit that Kyle tried to kill her, because she knows that will cause him to either by thrown out, or killed himself. It is part of Jeb's rules, and Kyle knew this. A lot of people assume that just because 1 member of a group/species acts in a certain way, ALL members of that group/species acts the same way. You see that especially in relationships. "All guys are jerks." "All girls are bitches." That is called stereotyping, and it frowned upon in...some places. Isa, I know you have been in some crappy relationships, but I promise you that there is someone out there who is really going to love you. He's just somewhere in Europe, and you two haven't met yet.

Chapter 34:
Kyle was brought into the hospital wing unconscious. Wanda is still in there, Ian is trying to find her a place to stay. Jared is going to protect her from Kyle. Kyle is awake now, and is upset that Wanda didn't fall (Kyle is still calling her "it"). I will now share with you one of the few funny passages in the book--

Jared lunged forward, away from me. With a loud smacking sound, his fist hit Kyle's face. Kyle's eyes rolled back in his head, and his mouth fell slack. The room was very quiet for a few seconds. "Um," Doc said in a mild voice, "medically speaking, I'm not sure that was the most helpful thing for his condition." "But I feel better," Jared answered, sullen. Doc smiled the tiniest smile. "Well, maybe a few more minutes of unconsciousness won't kill him."

Then we get to a bit of bickering between Wanda and Jared. Love it!

"This was human mourning, not mine. But I did mourn."

---Amelia

The Host: Day 14--Chapters 31 and 32

Chapter 31:
 "I was all alone in my head--exactly what I had once wanted. It made me feel lost." One of the resistance members, Walter, is dying. Doc thinks he has some form of cancer. His bones are very brittle. He injured his leg and is in a lot of pain now, but there is nothing that Doc can do except give him alcohol. Wanda has been sitting with Walter, holding his hand. That seems to help. Melanie was far away. Wanda wants to be, but Walter needs her.

Doc is very compassionate with Walter. It is surprising to Wanda, because she sees him as a cruel person. She is not sure what to think now. After seeing him with Walter now, Wanda cannot distrust him.

"When he was gone, there would be no one who could fill his place." Wanda is having a hard time accepting the fact that Walter is going to die. She has never had a friend like him before. The Souls that she made friends were with, were all the same to her. Walter was different, entirely his own. I have some people in my life who, if they were to die now, I probably would not miss that much. I would be sad, but it wouldn't be a big loss to me. But if you, Isabella, were to die today, I would feel it immensely. It would hurt. You are my best friend, someone I am extremely close to. It would be really hard. So, don't die, okay?

Chapter 32:
The title of this chapter is "Ambush". Wanda goes to the pool to clean up. It is really early, she is by herself, most people are still asleep. It is the perfect opportunity for Kyle. Kyle wants her dead. The two get in this struggle. He has already injured her leg by throwing a rock at her. Now they are fighting near the hot springs, where if you fall in, you are a goner. Kyle is trying to throw Wanda in there, but Wanda is holding on tight, so that if she falls so does Kyle. In an attempt to get her off, Kyle jumped and fell back down. It worked, but the ground is cracking beneath them. Wanda shoves herself into him, causing Kyle to knock his head against a pillar and falling unconscious. It is the perfect opportunity for Wanda to escape, but the ground is still breaking up around Kyle, who is about to fall in the spring. Melanie wants Wanda to run away, but Wanda goes to try to help Kyle instead. She has her good leg wrapped around a pillar, and her arms around Kyle, trying to keep him from falling. Kyle is her enemy, but she is trying to save him. How many people would do that?

---Amelia

The Host: Day 13--Chapters 29 and 30

Chapter 29:
"I wondererd if Melanie and I would have loved Jared if he'd always been who he was now, rather than the smiling Jared in our memories, the one who had come to Melanie with his hands full of hope and miracles. Would she have followed him if he'd always been so hard and cynical?"

"In a fight-or-flight situation, I never had a choice; it would always be flight for me." Jared had just put Wanda through a test. By now, he has heard Jeb's and Jamie's theories that Melanie is still alive inside Wanda, but he doesn't believe. He couldn't get Wanda to talk, so he kissed her instead. The reaction was not quite what he expected. They both felt passion, him and Wanda. But Wanda broke away by doing something she never thought she could do: she punched him. Then she fled, or tried to flee, because that is her nature.

Chapter 30:
"How could she be angry with me for what happen3d? How did that make sense? How was it my fault that I'd fallen in love because of the memories she forced on me and then been overthrown by his unruly body? I cared that she was suffering, yet my pain meant nothing to her. She enjoyed it. Vicious human." Jealousy. It is unfair of Melanie to be jealous at Wanda because Jared kissed her, but yet she is. There is not always a logical explanation for the feelings of human. We can be petty sometimes.

"I was feeling guilty--it seemed to be a permanent emotional state here. Guilt and fear and heartbreak. Why had I come?"

 ---Amelia

The Host: Day 12--Chapters 26-28

Chapter 26:
Jared, Kyle, and some others have been out on another raid for supplies for some time. After they had left, Jeb took Wanda on the tour of the caves, kept her around the rest of the humans as an attempt to get everyone used to her. It worked. But now, Jared and the others are back. And they came back while Wanda was teaching. Now the energy has changed. Jared was all for killing Wanda then, but now Jamie has laid his claim on Wanda. He convinced Jared to leave her alone, but Kyle made no such promise.

Chapter 27:
Melanie and Wanda are having a discussion. They agreed that trying to escape is out of the question. Now they can either try to prolong their stay by having Jeb and Ian protect them, or just have Jared kill them now. It's all about what would hurt Jamie less. They go for the quick option, but try to fight too. The only thing is, Wanda can't fight back, it is not her nature. Melanie can't understand it, even though Wanda has pretty much given up on her species, and is in love with Jamie and Jared. "I am who I am, Mel. I can't change that, though everything else may change. You hold on to yourself; allow me to do the same." I like Wanda's response. She always had a peaceful nature, so even though she has became more human, this part of her hasn't changed.

Chapter 28:
"A body that didn't function right was quickly and painlessly disposed of because it was as useless as a car that could not run. What was the point of keeping it around." Wanda is explaining to Ian that full-grown humans aren't kept on a hosts anymore, because there have been too many risks. They would use the body to see if they can get information, then discard the body. The Soul would then go to a different host. This image almost sickens me. Any body that doesn't function well, whether physically or mentally, is of no use, so they just chuck it out.

---Amelia

The Host: Day 11--Chapters 24 and 25

Chapter 24:
"The soap burned more strongly against my bare skin, but the sting was bearable because it meant I could be clean again." Jeb decided it was time Wanda had a bath. She had been wearing the same clothes everyday, and had her doing chores for the first time. They found some clean clothes for her, and he gave Wanda a bar of homemade cactus soap, which is rough and burns a little. It helped get rid of all the dirt and salt on her clothes and skin. I can only imagine how refreshing it felt to Wanda after her bath.

"I've been getting them all used to seeing you around, getting them to accept the situation without realizing it." Jeb gave Wanda a tour of the caves, had her do chores, eat in the mess hall with everyone else. His plan worked. At first, everyone froze whenever she walked into a room. But now, they ignore her. "I've always thought that if a person wants to, he can get along with just about everybody." Wanda still may not have been trusted by everyone, but they were beginning to to accept her being there.

"Self-examination is good for the soul." I agree. It is important to find out who you are.

"I've been thinking about it a lot, and I can't see how killing you would make anything right. It would be like executing a private for a general's war crimes...Anyway, as long as you don't put us in danger, it seems...cruel to kill you. What's one more misfit in this place?" Ian, on why he hasn't killed Wanda.

"Where have I ever fit in?" I ask myself this a lot.

Chapter 25:
"I could not earn a place, I knew that, but I tried to make my presence as light a burden as possible." She has been working harder than anyone else on chores. While Jeb, Ian, and Jamie may welcome her, none of the others do. She doesn't want to take advantage of everyone.  I like this about her.

"Because what did it mean if the greatest love I'd ever felt in my nine lives, the first true sense of family, of maternal instinct, was for an alien life-form?"

---Amelia

The Host: Day 10--Chapters 21-23

Chapter 21:
"We come to experience, not to change." People always seem to assume that aliens want to take over, make Earth be the planet they want. But that doesn't seem to be the case here. The Souls don't want to change anything on Earth. When they were inserted, they kept the same behaviors that the host human had. If the human had a partner, they stayed with that partner. Interesting.

"What stopped me wasn't the knowledge that a move like that would get me killed. What stopped me was the fact that I was weaker than the human in this way; even to save the boy, I could not make myself touch the weapon." Jeb put Jamie on guard duty. He gave Jamie his gun. That freaked Wanderer out. She still saw Jamie as a child, and didn't think a child should have a weapon like that. She almost grabbed it out of his hand, but she couldn't. She was scared of it. Another way of showing her innocence.

"These were not the tears of a child, and that made them more profound--made it more sacred and painful that he would cry them in front of me. This was the grief of a man at the funeral for his entire family." Wanderer told Jamie how the Souls invaded Earth. It hurt him to hear, because he "lost" his dad and his sister. His family. Imagine the pain of losing your whole family. Now I am reminded of the Doctor. Not only is his family gone, so is his planet. He is the last Timelord. Add Rose, Donna, and all the other companions that he has lost, all the lives he failed to save. So much pain.

"The mysterious bond of mother and child--so strong on this planet--was not a mystery to me any longer. There was no bond greater than one that required your life for another's. I'd understood this truth before; what I had not understood was why. Now I knew why a mother would give her life for her child, and this knowledge would forever shape the way I saw the universe." Lily sacrificing herself for Harry. Harry sacrificing himself for everyone. Katniss volunteering in place of Prim. Mulan fighting so her aged father would not have to.

Wanderer has been renamed Wanda. 

Chapter 22:
"I've been wondering if you all aren't turning sort of human. If we don't have some real influence, in the end." Was Wandar turning human? Or did it somehow already fit her nature. I know a lot of Melanie's feelings were new for Wanda, but you could already tell that Wanderer had a soft nature.

Chapter 23:
Wanda confessed to Jamie that Melanie was still there.

"Was he really no longer intent on my death? Or just looking for an opportunity." Wanda still doesn't know what to think of Ian. He first tried to kill her, now he is being nice to her. Why?

---Amelia

The Host: Day 9--Chapters 19 and 20

Chapter 19:
"Just because she isn't human, do you think that means she doesn't feel pain?" Animal cruelty. There are a lot of people who abuse animals just because they can. Did you know that pets will still love you, even if you are mean to them? Do you remember the episode of Doctor Who with the space whale? How the people on that ship were abusing it? I think about that as I read the quote. Everyone in the hiding place, except for Jeb and Doc, wants Wanderer dead, because she is not human. So far. This line was said by Ian. Ian was with the group that brought Wanderer in. He did not want her there, either. But even he notices that Wanderer is not like the other souls. He sees the bruises that Jared, Kyle, and even himself has left on her. He is beginning to have some compassion for her. He feels guilty for having strangled her.

Chapter 20:
"A person would be on her guard on a dark and ominous night, a person would be ready. But on a clear, sunny day? How would she know to flee when she couldn't see any place for danger to hide?" I mentioned Doc, how he doesn't want Wanderer dead. The only reason he doesn't want her dead, is because he wants to experiment on her to see if he can learn anything about the Souls. It would probably be torture for Wanderer. He has speaks softly and smiles a little, but she still doesn't trust him. She doesn't know what he would have planned for her. To her, he is more dangerous than Kyle.

---Amelia

The Host: Day 8--Chapters 17 and 18

Chapter 17:
"Why this crazy human should be such a comfort to me, I couldn't understand. I supposed it was like Melanie had said, desperate times." As I mentioned before, Jeb is the only one who has been nice to Wanderer. Because of that, I guess, she is clinging on to him. He took her to the bath and latrine area. He waited outside the entrance while she relieved herself. While she was separated from him, she was full of panic. When she finished and found him still waiting on her, her nerves calmed. I think it makes sense that she latched on to him.

"I was strong again. The strength of my body gave strength to my control, to my determination." Jamie was waiting for them when they got back from the bathing area. When they first saw Jared, Wanderer was unable to stop Melanie from flinging herself at him. This time, Wanderer was able to hold her back.

"I'd already known that she was more to me than a resistant host who made life unnecessarily difficult. We'd become companions, even confidantes during our past weeks together--ever since the Seeker had united us against a common enemy." I like this, because it shows that even the biggest of rivals can work together if they have just one common bond between them.

Chapter 18:
"Melanie and I thought a lot about Jamie. Mostly we worried that we had damaged him by coming here, that we were injuring him now. What was a kept promise in comparison to that?" Melanie had made a promise to Jamie that she would come back to him. She fought so hard to keep that promise. Now Wanderer/Melanie were wondering if they made the right choice in going to find them. Were they hurting him now?

"I wondered what he thought me capable of. What plan did he think I was hatching to overthrow their little world? Did I really seem so powerful? Wasn't it clear how pathetically defenseless I  was?" Person A can be so full of hatred for Person B, even when everything that B has done so far is show that they are not there do any harm. Wanderer hasn't tried to run away or harm anyone. She is scared of everyone. She is still even a little hesitant with Jeb, the guy who is very kind to her. She tries to make herself invisible when she is in her little tunnel. But yet, Jared still hates her, still is distrustful of her.

--Amelia

The Host: Days 6 and 7--Chapters 13-16

Chapter 13:
"I forced her to see it from my perspective: to see the threatening shapes inside the dirty jeans and light cotton shirts, brown with dust. They might have been human--as she thought of the word--once, but at this moment they were something else. They were barbarians, monsters. They hung over us, shivering for blood. There was a death sentence in every pair of eyes." You've heard the stories of people getting made fun/beat up for who they are. For some reason, a lot of people fear those that are different. Blacks, gays, Muslims. How many times has a gay student committed suicide because they were mocked so badly. I watched a movie where a kid was beaten to death because he was Muslim, and it was right after 9/11. How many times did Malfoy call Hermione a Mudblood. At this point in the story, Wanderer/Melanie has been found by Jeb and some others hiding with him. Only Jeb is kind to her. The others want nothing more than to kill her, because she is no longer human. Different.

"Last night Melanie and I had wished for death, but death had been only inches away at the time. It was different now that I was on my feet again." Christians look forward to the day when they die, because that means they are going to heaven. A place with no suffering or tears, where they can meet Jesus. It is easy to think about death from far away, but I imagine it is a different feeling when the day actually comes. You think you are ready, but when it comes to it, you are scared. A little different in Melanie's case, but same concept. She was on the verge of death, so she wanted an end to the suffering. But now that she has had some water, and is being led to the hideout, she doesn't want to die. She is scared. Can you blame her?

Chapter 15:
"You're in love with him, too, separately from me. It feels different from the way I feel. Other. I didn't see that until he was there with us, until you saw him for the first time. How did that happend? How does a three-inch-long worm fall in love with a human being?" Melanie realizes that Wanderer is in love with Jared. I can see how that would happen. Melanie was still very much present when Wanderer was inserted in her body. Wanderer saw Melanie's memories of Jared, felt how much Melanie loved him. This went on long enough for Wanderer to have those same feelings herself. Like Melanie said, the feelings that Wanderer has are a little different than Melanie's feelings. Because Wanderer was only going off memories, the emotions are probably not going to be exactly the same as Melanie. She has her own feelings for him. No two people loves the same person in exactly the same way. I can see this causing problems between Melanie and Wanderer.

Chapter 16:
"If, unlikely as it may be, somehow this ever happens again, whoever the body belongs to makes the call." Jeb has now put the Wanderer/Melanie's fate in Jared's hand. Just imagine what all is going through Jared's head:  the body of the girl he loves, with the eyes of the Souls. He waited and waited for Melanie to come back. Now she has, but not his Melanie. She is tainted. How would you handle the situation?

---Amelia

The Host: Day 5--Chapters 11 and 12

Chapter 11:
"Who would live out here? We souls live for society. Why did I no longer belong to the society of souls? Why did I feel like I didn't...like I didn't want to belong? Had I really been a part of the community that was meant to be my own, or was that the reason behind my long line of lives lived in transience?...Had this planet changed me, or revealed me for what I already was?...Who was I?" Because of Melanie's memories, Wanderer cares so much for Jared and Jamie. She now wants to do everything she can to protect them from people like the Seeker. At this point she is having a sort of identity crisis. She has spent time in so many hosts. Has she finally found her home? I just really love Wanderer right now. She is trying to figure out who she is, which is something everyone goes through. She is being human.

Chapter 12:
"Well, I think that maybe...you're dying to be human. After all the planets and all the hosts you've left behind, you've finally found the place and the body you'd die for. I think you've found your home, Wanderer." This fits in with what I was just talking about. Melanie thinks that Wanderer is trying to be human.

"There's a reason we call it the final death...We have so many lives. Anything more would be...too much to expect. We die a little death every time we leave a host. We live again in another. When I die here, that will be the end." Wanderer and Melanie are talking the "afterlife". Wanderer explains that the Souls don't believe in it. Wanderer knows that if she died now, this would be her last body, her last host. No one really knows what happens after you die. Heaven, Hell, Nirvana, Reincarnation. It's a mystery.

---Amelia

The Host: Day 4--Chapters 9 and 10

I think these two chapters are the turning points for Wanderer and Melanie in the book. Wanderer decides to travel to see her first Healer, Fords Deep Waters, about what to do about her situation with Melanie. The Seeker wants Wanderer to skip to another Host, since she obviously can't control Melanie. Wanderer no longer trusts the Seeker, so she wants to talk to the Healer about what to do.

On the way there, Melanie keeps dreaming about Jared and Jamie. She knows that if the Seeker was to invade her body, it would mean that she had lost. The Seeker would do everything to get the rest of Melanie's secret. In chapter 9, Wanderer decides that she will do her best to keep Melanie away from the Seeker. She realizes that she has grown to care for Jared and Jamie about as much as Melanie herself does. As Wanderer continues to drive, Melanie dreams about a picture of a scribbles, which they figure out is a map to a hideout that her uncle showed her. Her uncle Jeb was one of the "nutters" who suspected alien invasions and stuff before it actually happened, so they were prepared for when the Souls came. Wanderer and Melanie decide that they are going to find that hideout, because that is where Jamie and Jared will be.

In chapter 10, they stop at at a gas station to get some water and a few other supplies, avoiding eye contact with the other people there. This where my favorite quotation from today comes from.

Wanderer wants to continue driving on the little road as much as possible. Melanie wants to be out walking, like what she was doing before she was captured. Wanderer doesn't think that would satisfy her.

"I could feel the real desire beneath the surface. Freedom. To move her body to the familiar rhythm of her long stride with only her will for guidance. For a moment, I allowed myself to see the prison that was life without a body. To be carried inside but unable to influence the shape around you. To be trapped. To have no choices."

There have been times when I have felt stuck, unable to go anywhere. I still can't imagine what it would be like in the scenario that Wanderer just described. That would be unbearable.

I want to leave with a quote from one of my favorite movies:
"Not just the Spanish Main, love. The entire ocean. The entire wo'ld. Wherever we want to go, we'll go. That's what a ship is, you know. It's not just a keel and a hull and a deck and sails, that's what a ship needs, but what a ship is... what the Black Pearl really is... is freedom." 

---Amelia

The Host: Day 2 (cont) and Day 3--chapters 6-8

Chapter 3:
"Not strong enough. Would they think me weak as well? Was I weak, that I could not force this mind to answer my questions? Weaker still, because her living thoughts had existed in my head where there should be nothing but memory? I'd always thought of myself as strong. This idea of weakness made me flinch. Made me feel shame." Why should Wanderer feel weak because Melanie is still with her? What make the souls the better species? This is a recurring thought of mine. Does this theme sound familiar to you? One species/race/religion/party thinks they are better than another species/race/religion/party. They try to force their beliefs on the other, thinking that they are right and the "lesser" of the two is wrong, so they should be converted. Disgusting.

"My name was now Wanderer, yet her memories fit it just as well as my own. Except that my wandering was by choice. These flashes of memory were always tinged with the fear of the hunted. Not wandering, but running." Wanderer got her name because she has lived on a bunch of different planets. She would stay there until her host body died, then move to a different place. She gave a lot of thought into where she would go next. She chose to move. Melanie, on the other hand, was also moving because she didn't want to be "tainted" by a soul. She was forced to. Melanie never stayed in the same place for a long time. Throughout this book, you get to see all the similarities/differences between the two.

Chapter 4:
"...but because she protected him more fiercely than other secrets I'd unraveled." Wanderer is talking about how Melanie is extremely protective of Jamie, her brother. The scene before was the first time we found out about Jamie. Melanie's relationship with him reminds me of Katniss' relationship with Prim.

Chapter 5:
"A Healer? You want me to skip?" "No one would think badly of that choice, Wanderer. It's understood, if a host is defective--" "Defective? She's not defective. I am. I'm too weak for this world!" Again I ask, why is it such a bad thing that Melanie is still present in Wanderer's mind?

"...I had not skipped out on the life term of my host. To do so was wasteful, wrong, ungrateful. It mocked the very essence of who we were as souls. We made our worlds better places; that was absolutely essential or we did not deserve them." I mentioned before that Wanderer always stayed with her host until the host died. The main reason why I liked this quote when she said that the souls made the worlds they visited better places. The next paragraph talks about why the souls came to Earth to begin with, how humans were "brutish and ungovernable." All the killings and wars. Part of me wants to say that the souls were right in coming to Earth, but at the same time, being a human myself, I understand why Melanie ran. Just because you don't agree with someone, doesn't mean you have to take control of them.

Before I continue on to my next quote, can I just say that I hate the Seeker? She is in the same group as Snow and Umbridge.

Chapter 8:
"It was very relaxing to be away from civilization, and this bothered me. I should not have found the loneliness so welcoming. Souls were sociable. We lived and worked and grew together in harmony. We were all the same: peaceful, friendly, honest. Why should I feel better away from my kind? Was it Melanie who made me this way?" I like Wanderer here. Compare her to the Seeker: the Seeker wants to rid the Earth of humans through whatever means possible, because when one exits, a soul dies, and a soul is obviously more important. Wanderer is more sympathetic. That could just be because of Melanie, but even in the beginning I think Wanderer had a kinder heart than the Seeker. The Seeker doesn't seem peaceful, friendly, and honest to me.

When Jared talks about how he doesn't want to bring a child into their world, I think about Katniss and how she doesn't want to bring a child into the world where District children fight to the death.

---Amelia

"The Host" Reread Day 2--Chapters 3-5

Hey there! Wow, it feels like forever since I've been on here. Goodness. Life in the Army is going kind of crazy, but thankfully, Ames and I are able to start rereading "The Host" before the movie comes out next month. I think it's safe to say that we are both extremely excited about the movie.

Here are my thoughts from today's readings and some quotes.

First, can I just say that I want to tear through this book right now? I seriously wish we had less time to read it so that I could read it faster. Two chapters a day starting next week? That's going to kill me. I forgot how much I love these characters. Right now, I am definitely having some feels.

Chapter Three-
Does it seem odd to you that the Healer and the Seeker are so much more than just their souls? Or is that what it's like since humans are so vastly different from the other species that the souls have taken over? I don't think there's an issue with the writing here. I just think it shows how we as a race (the human race) are so much more powerful than we give ourselves credit for. I mean, there are things that the soul just would not be able to overcome despite the fact that they are attached in every way to the physical body. I don't know. I am nerdily excited about the science and theoretical issues that would come with this. I don't know how to explain my the nerding going on in my head right now. I love the Healer, Fords, and I kind of wish we could have seen him more. The Seeker is a bitch, but we always knew that one.

Chapter Four-
I love the dream. It screams of a dystopic world for both Jared and Melanie, yet for the rest of the world, all the souls, it's a utopia. Are you kidding me? I love that concept. That even in this utopia there's the ability to exist a dystopic world for others. It just seems so real to me because even if a so called utopia did exist, there would still be dystopic tendencies. Also, how many people would be so unhappy in a world that is supposedly so perfect? This world that is free of violence, free of unpleasantness for the most part is a world that Melanie and Jared refuse to join because to them it's worse than living in a world with the violence and the anger and unpleasantness. How wonderful is this book? Seriously. You have people who are supposedly so good doing something that we would consider so evil, but that they see as being helpful. I mean, you've definitely got some of the flawed hero going on here with these souls. They think they're doing the right thing, but they're actually enslaving the human race. And then you have the resistance, the humans who see the truth for what it is, and they're doing all the wrong things to try to escape this so called "utopia" that really, in essence, just kills them. Because it is like they die. They lose who they are and all they have left are their bodies. Which are controlled by someone else who uses it for things that they have absolutely zero say in. And, I'm sorry, but I don't care how long you've been away from the human race, Jared Howe, you do no manhandle a girl and then kiss her when you find out she's human. I expect better from you, Howe!

Here are two quotes from this chapter that I really like:
Melanie/Wanda is having a dream about when Melanie first met Jared, but before she meets him, she's scoping out the house of two souls. She's waiting for them to be gone so that she can steal their food and get back to her younger brother who is starving. She talks about how the souls keep up human appearances really well. "I think it's Friday. They keep our habits so perfectly, it's hard to see any difference. Which is how they won in the first place." It reminds me of a quote from a Gilmore Girls episode. I don't remember the exact quote and I don't remember the exact episode. But it's when Lorelai is explaining to Sooki how to put the leash onto Paul Anka (the dog). She explains that he's like us Americans: we like to have our freedom slowly stripped away from us without our knowledge. Something like that. And this is exactly what happened with the human race when the souls came in. They start becoming extinct without even realizing it. It shows a lot of flaws in the way humans exist. How we refuse to acknowledge problems or stand up to them until it's way too late.

This next quote is just a good one in my opinion because it just explains way too perfectly how hard it can be to be human sometimes. And how another species could be rocked to the core by just how difficult it is to handle human emotions. How sharp and vivid and powerful they are. "I blinked away the unwelcome moisture in my eyes. I didn't know how much more of this I could stand. How did anyone survive this world, with these bodies whose memories wouldn't stay in the past where they should? With these emotions that were so strong I couldn't tell what I felt anymore?" It also speaks to me because I have a lot of memories that I wish I could forget. But I can't. Because that's not the way life works for me or for anyone else. And it just makes being human a little more difficult to handle. I understand Wanda so well right here.

Chapter Five-
These are where one my favorite quotes exist. I can't handle this book sometimes. And I'm not even into the real emotional parts of this book. I think rereading this will end me. But it is SO GOOD. I swear to everything good and holy that this woman did not write this book.

I will just write down the quote real fast because I feel like I've ranted on long enough. So, here we go:
"'In so many millennia, the humans never did figure love out. How much is physical, how much in the mind? How much accident and how much fate? Why did perfect matches crumble and impossible couples thrive? I don't know the answers any better than they did. Love simply is where it is.'"

I love this.

Happy Hunger Games and May the Odds be Ever in Your Favor!
Happy reading.
Isabella

Book Club: The Host--Day 1

Question
Body my house
my horse my hound
what will I do
when you are fallen

Where will I sleep
How will I ride
What will I hunt

Where can I go
without my mount
all eager and quick
How will I know
in thicket ahead
is danger or treasure
When Body my good
bright dog is dead

How will it be
to lie in the sky
without roof or door
and wind for an eye

with cloud for a shift
how will I hide?
             ---May Swenson


The chapters for Day 1 were the Prologue through chapter 2. I marked a few lines that I liked, so I thought I would start the discussion there.

In the prologue, the Healer and his assistant are talking the adult human that has been brought in. They are getting ready to insert the soul, and the Healer is annoyed by the students who came to watch the procedure. The assistant made a comment that the soul they are about to insert has be specifically picked the human on the table. He said that, if the soul was able to, it would have volunteered for this assignment. This is how the Healer responds,

"Who among us would not volunteer if asked to do something for the greater good? But is that really the case here? Is the greater good served by this? The question is not her willingness, but what is right to ask any soul to bear."

As you know, the human put up a pretty good fight to avoid being captured; the human's final act damaged the body a lot. The soul is going to have every single memory of the human. The Healer knows that the soul is going to have to bear a lot. Supposedly this is all for "the greater good", but the Healer is not sure if he is doing the right thing in this case. It makes me think about how even the best intentions may not be appropriate, they could make the situation worse, especially if the actions taken to do the "right thing" is not the right thing in itself. Does this make sense?

My last two quotes come from chapter 2.
"Storytelling was the most honored of all talents, for it benefited everyone." I really like that line. I think storytelling has always been important. Remember, before the written word came about, stories were told orally. These stories were myths, in the sense that it helped them understand the world. I like stories.

"Good citizenship was quintessential to every soul." Does this make you think of the Hunger Games to you? You know, how the citizens of the districts had to obey the laws of the Capitol. The reason why the Games took place was to prove to the Districts that they couldn't beat the Capitol. Remember what happened the last time they tried to revolt? This is what that line makes me think of. The Souls control everything. It is important to obey them. In fact, I think the Seeker could work for the Capitol. She has the same sort of mindset.

These are my thoughts so far. I look forward to hearing your thoughts.
---Amelia