The Host: Day 13--Chapters 29 and 30

Chapter 29:
"I wondererd if Melanie and I would have loved Jared if he'd always been who he was now, rather than the smiling Jared in our memories, the one who had come to Melanie with his hands full of hope and miracles. Would she have followed him if he'd always been so hard and cynical?"

"In a fight-or-flight situation, I never had a choice; it would always be flight for me." Jared had just put Wanda through a test. By now, he has heard Jeb's and Jamie's theories that Melanie is still alive inside Wanda, but he doesn't believe. He couldn't get Wanda to talk, so he kissed her instead. The reaction was not quite what he expected. They both felt passion, him and Wanda. But Wanda broke away by doing something she never thought she could do: she punched him. Then she fled, or tried to flee, because that is her nature.

Chapter 30:
"How could she be angry with me for what happen3d? How did that make sense? How was it my fault that I'd fallen in love because of the memories she forced on me and then been overthrown by his unruly body? I cared that she was suffering, yet my pain meant nothing to her. She enjoyed it. Vicious human." Jealousy. It is unfair of Melanie to be jealous at Wanda because Jared kissed her, but yet she is. There is not always a logical explanation for the feelings of human. We can be petty sometimes.

"I was feeling guilty--it seemed to be a permanent emotional state here. Guilt and fear and heartbreak. Why had I come?"

 ---Amelia