Sunday, June 19, 2011

A dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast asleep.

Post by Amelia--

First of all, I like to sing the first line of this Cinderella song to the tune of Harry Potter. I think it fits in with the series.

Anywho, the topic of this post is Dreams.

I have a dream...to one day go to Europe. I have a dream...to become an excellent actess (not necessarily famous, I don't want to have to deal with a bunch of poparazzis). I have a dream...to move out of Oklahoma. There is not a lot of opportunites here. I'm sure that there are some good theatres here I could work for. But, I like the thought of being a part of a professional theatre. Being on Broadway has its appeal. Broadway, however, is on the east coast.

I'm not saying that Oklahoma is bad. I have my family here (except for my favorite niece). I was involved in an excellent marching band. My college is not that great, but it was here that I met my best friend (it's a shame we weren't closer during our freshman and part of sophomore years). I met my first boyfriend here as well, but that's a different story. I'm just saying that I want something bigger than what this state can give me. It means leaving some people behind (mom, dad, brothers, friends, etc), but it also means doing something for myself, learning to stand on my feet. I haven't been able to do that yet. Yes, I have been the one to pay for my college education when my scholarships and loans weren't enough. I have had 4 jobs so far. This job I have now with the music show is my fifth job. I know that I haven't been the best with money, but I have gotten by. But I haven't had my own apartment yet, or a car. I was finally able to get my first contracted cell phone (my first cell phone was one from walmart that I had to keep buying minutes for). But other than that, I haven't been on my own. Granted, I am wanting to move with either my roommate or with my husband if I happen to be married at that time. But, it will allow to me to learn how to be fully responsible for myself. It's scary to think about going off in the "real world".

I have a love for Europe. I really want to go there. Now, though Europe is my dream place, I would also like to go to Asia or Egypt. I just want to experience another country. I would even consider moving to Europe. More than likely to London. I don't know if that dream will actually happen or not, but just travelling there would be amazing for me. There is so much history and art there. Don't get me wrong. I have pride for my country. The United States has some beautiful places, and there is history and art here. But, I just want more.

I've lived my whole life in Oklahoma. I have taken band trips to Missouri and Texas, went on mission trips in Mexico and Honduras (Honduras was my first plane ride, and was the first time I had needed a passport). Once I went to a concert in Dodge City (we got the heck out of Dodge). I consider my life growning up to be sheltered. We weren't able to go to a lot of places. Plus my parents divorced when I was still young, so I didn't get to go on family trips (so might say I was lucky in that area). That's one reason why I want to get out and experience something.

I want to be with someone who wants to experience something to. Someone who would want to travel with me. I joke that my guy is in Europe right now. I do not want to give my heart away to a guy who wants to remain in Oklahoma. I sound mean, don't I?

I think I'm just rambling now. But do you get what I'm saying? Does it make any sense? I hope so.

DFTBA

*harry potter tune* A dream is a wish your heart makes when you are fast asleep.
Stuck in your head now, isn't it?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I think your dreams are well placed. It's not like you're dreaming of being part of a drug cartel or even being a in the CIA. I think your dreams are very possible. I know that you and I have similar dreams. I also know the inescapable feeling of "OMG, I'm about to be an adult out in the real world!" Don't worry. Everything will be fine. It's simpler to focus on what you need to get done to make it through the summer alive and then move on from there.

"Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia...You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining the future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present."--John Green, Looking for Alaska